MTF Transition Timeline 3 Years!!

There are some amazing changes here!!

Why I Transitioned?

We want to be on the outside the way we feel on the inside.

I Tried to Pass Today.

As someone who still feels a twinge of nerves every time I go out in public dressed as a woman, I had a very odd thing happen to me today. What happened makes me think I don’t have as much to worry about as I had thought. This time it happened in drab (dressed as a boy), and it still reflects on how I present as a woman.

I spend a lot of time as a woman, but I still do some of my personal business as a guy. I know I should just summon up the nerve and just change everything. Someday I am sure I will do it, but for now I am just not ready.

Anyway I was going to my cable company today to swap out my cable modem and discuss why my bill was so high. When it was my turn I stepped up to a high customer service counter, which came up to, about my armpits. I gave the woman at the counter my phone number and she looked up my account. I verified the name and address on that account and all was good. I gave her the old modem and she got out a new one from the big cabinet behind her. Then we started talking about packages of cable TV and Internet services. I found one that I like that was going to cost less then I was paying now and included an internet phone system too.

Then she looked carefully at the account on her computer. She then said, “I am sorry, but you are not an authorized user on this account.” I thought that was pretty odd because I had been dealing with them for years and the account was in my name, my boy name. It should have been all right, because that was how I was dressed. I told her I was George, the name on the account. She just repeated that I was not an authorized user. We went round and round again. I told her that I was George and that I should be the only name on my account. She finely agreed and let me be an authorized user on my account, when I knew my social security number. Some how I guess I did not look like a George.

I guess I did not look all that butch today. I had a male shirt and jeans. I also just brushed my hair back and put my hair in a pony tail. I did not slick my hair back with jell or anything as I often do, so by the time I left the cable company, and looked in a mirror, my hair was a little windblown and with a curl on my forehead.

I never thought it would happen to me. The woman at the desk saw me as someone, probably a wife, taking care of business, while her husband was at work. Today I had to prove I was not my own wife. This was very odd indeed for someone, who has not had any facial surgery to help change my face. I only had my beard removed, trimmed my eyebrows, and took hormones for a few years.

Today, I did not even have to try, to be taken as my own wife.

Recommended Books and Sites for Someone Thinking of Transitioning.

Andrea James (Calpernia's friend in Transamerican Love Story) has her TS Roadmap Site [A fantastic and detailed site about transition.]

Deep Stealth Productions where Andrea and Calpernia have a series of helpful DVDs.

How To Change Your Sex: A Lighthearted Look at the Hardest Thing You'll Ever Do by Lannie Rose. She has a website and a podcast where she reads and discusses the book. www.lannierose.com

Wrapped In Blue: A Journey of Discovery by Donna Rose. [A great biography]

She's Not There : A Life in Two Genders by JENNIFER FINNEY BOYLAN [Another great biography]

True Selves: Understanding Transsexualism--For Families, Friends, Coworkers, and Helping Professionals by Mildred L. Brown, Chloe Ann Rounsley [A book to show the family]

My Gender Workbook: How to Become a Real Man, a Real Woman, the Real You, or Something Else Entirely by Kate Bornstein [I have an internet friend that says this book helped her decide to transition.]

'I got an "F"!' says Christine Daniels

I got an "F"!

Right now I am looking at a priceless piece of paper I just pulled from my wallet and unfolded. I am thinking of having it laminated, or framed, or both, although a frame might make it a tad too bulky for my handbag.

"INTERIM DRIVERS LICENSE" it says at the top.

"CHRISTINE MICHELLE DANIELS" it says a few lines below.

And then, finally, the moment I've been waiting for, for as long as I was old enough to dream impossible dreams:

"SEX: F"

I got my "F"! Yesterday, at long last, I got the grade I always wanted.

It began with a lot of paperwork. I needed a document proving I had undergone a legal name change, which required six weeks to process, including a legal notice that had to be published in a newspaper one day a week for four consecutive weeks.

Read the rest at http://latimesblogs.latimes.com/womaninprogress/2007/07/i-got-an-f.html

CNN report of Susan Stanton

CNN report of Susan Stanton who was fired as city manager from Largo, FL for being transgendered

My first "ma'am" while dressed in drab.

I was shopping at Kroger on Friday, and the lady giving out free samples of Pizza Bits gave me my first "ma'am" while dressed as a guy. I did not say any thing but wanted to give her a hug. I am not sure how it happened. LOL Probably just did not look up, because the only real "clue" might have been my now shoulder length hair.

Any way, thank you "Ma'am!"

I went out last night to Tennessee Vals meeting. After it many of us we went to The Chute, a gay bar afterwards. It was great and I looked pretty good, if I am say so myself. :-)

I hung out with Misty and JayEllen for a few hours drinking a few beers. We had a great time. Did not want to drink to many because I had to drive 50 miles home, or go home with some one I shouldn't. LOL We me a cute black and shapely CD, Olivia. She looked 100% passable. She was great, and would not believe I was 60 years old.

Sunday, I have been kind of an uneasy feeling and I do not know why.

Here is a list of the possible reasons for feeling down:

• I am not going out again today
• I am not full time
• I am not sure I want to be TS
• I miss my ex wife, and being TS will probably prevent any reconciliation
  
• Being a woman is so hard

I started this post a Sunday and I still feel about the same a day later, and I still do not know which reason is why.

Let's hope the uneasy felling passes.